Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Day One: A Hard Place to Land

About six weeks ago, I lost my job.  I was sick for a couple of weeks and upon returning to work I was told I was no longer needed.  Beyond that being my only source of income while finishing school, it was something I loved doing.  The job was being a ballroom dance instructor and I was in love with it.  

Well, last Thursday Zane's boss called him into work on a day off.  Turns out he had failed a secret shop and his boss was furious.  He was nearly fired.  Instead, he had to beg for his job.  In keeping his job he had to work two shifts with no tips, and then be forced to work at the hotel as opposed to KCP&L where the tips are three to four times as much.  Considering we are currently living off his income this seemed like quite the blow.

Things seem pretty down and out at the moment.  Daily life consists of chores around the house, finishing up school work, job searching, worrying about money, finances, car troubles, etc.  That isn't much to look forward to.  A person needs something to look forward to and live for on a daily basis.

Just a couple of weeks ago at one of Zane's last RCIA sessions FR. Joe said congratulations to the newly confirmed, and said "Let the honeymoon be long and joyous, but know that it will come to an end."

Not that our fair is weathering at all.  But with that being said, the high Zane was on, and that I followed close behind after Zane's Easter Vigil has certainly worn off.  For me what I have to look forward to all week is church because that is the one place I don't feel so down about our lives.

Well, I've never been one to pray much at home.  Occasionally, but not as often as I would like.  And I've never had much of a love for the Rosary.  I decided if there was a time for Mary to instill a love for the Rosary in my heart it was now.  

So, I decided if nothing else every night I had the opportunity to pray the rosary and be that the thing I looked forward to through the day.  We shall see how this all plays out...